So yeah like four years... jesus... lots has changed and a lot has stayed just where it was. I think now for the first time in four years I feel forward momentum. Namely I think that comes from some high hopes about the possiblities grad school happening.
The biggest difference is that I'm not as lost anymore, or maybe that its I've become much more okay with being lost. I thought that, four years ago, that big setbacks and confusion were the abbartaion not the norm. Now I realise being sure of the path is the werid moment.