Am I just a comlpete fuck up?

So today is one of those days that I always seem to have in Stevens Point (aka, living hell). I feel like I am a complete moron. I woke up late for makeup, late enough that it was pointless to come in. So I went in to talk to Susan and got the whole what the hell is it now Chris, that I get seem to get from all my professors here. I feel like they feel that I can't do this and really as far as I am concerned there are about two things in this world that I am good at. And theatre is one of them. If they don't think I can succed out there I need to fucking know. I know that I can namely cause i get enough rest and I only have to focus on one fucking aspect of my life, work, not work and school which over the course of the last two and half years I have learned doesn't seem to work. I'm sick of feeling like the moron which is why when I'm here I apologize so fucking much. I want this to be done which is not how I wanted to feel about my last semester of college but right now I want to quit even though I only have a month left. I just want to be done and go curl up somewhere and not move for awhile. I'm just fucking tired of who I am when I am here.

A cute cat is staring at me

Well home again. Its werid coming back. espeically when Dave comes with. Its not that anyone here minds him at all, in fac they rather like him, but it makes coming home going to my parents house which is after all supposed happen at some point. Plus I'm kinda down right now cause I just dropped Dave off at the airport to go to New York to take care of things there like moving. So I don't get to see him. I could've gone but school has prevented me so sad day. At least its only to Monday. Man I'm fucking patheic but I really don't mind. So yeah today is visiting people whom I haven't been able to in a long time day. It should be fun. Other than that I'm doing well. Oh and the cute cat in question is a grey tabby named Gizmo, who belongs to my sister.

Okay. So I promised Nicki that I would give her a link to this blog once I wrote something profound and pithy. So..... yeah.... um. Okay so profundity is not my strong point sp I'll just say what's up. I'm still here in Point and I'm in the middle of the holy shit I'm graduating and don't have a job yet portion of the semester. I have been looking ( mainly in San Francisco( come on its pretty)) and Yesterday I actually applied for two jobs that I don't have a shot in hell at getting but Hey you never know the people a cirque du soilie might be crazy enough to hire me on as an ASM. I don't really want to Stage Manage in any capicity but what the hell why not. Its work and it is in Vegas which can work for Dave to since there is a shit ton of work in that town for lighty type people. The only problem is that I can see Dave's friend Andrew occuping our couch most weekends. But hey it would be good work. If that doesn't come through, I do have a gig hopefully in May back with good old Utah Opera Festival Company. Well see.

Woot

Just a happy moment. I got two references I wanted okayed. Which means it is on to resume time. :0)