Thursday, February 21, 2008

Change of Pace

Things are well things. Which means things are alturnatly euphoric and intensly frustrating. And I find myself asking if I should even be in this field. I'm okay at my job, but not exceptional, not great. I'm passable, okay. But not great. I'm not even sure if I'm good. And I keep moving and I'm becoming sick of it. I want to stay put. But I am also questioning if this is what I should be doing with my life and if it is not then it begs the question, what the hell I should be doing with my life. And it makes me ask what am I good at. And in the end I don't know. I don't think I'll be leaving theatre perminantly, but I do feel I need the break. At least now during all the chaos.


Laura said...

I completely understand the desire for a break from theatre. It's a profession where emotions run high and all the moving around - I don't know how you handle it. it totally makes sense if you need to move to one apartment and work in a bagel shop for a year. Do what you need to do. I'm already so proud of you for making it this far and always pushing yourself to continue in this crazy career path.
I hope to hear from you soon.

Nicki said...

Ditto Laura. Call me some time and we can talk about theatre burnout. :) Do what you need to do to stay sane--that's more important that a show, no matter what the director says!